Well, I’m finally doing it! I’ve been thinking and dreaming and praying about starting a blog for many years now. So today I join over 170,000 new bloggers (yes, you read that right) as I launch.
Am I ready? Nope!
Does my blog look great? Nope!
Do I really have time to put into this? Nope!
Do I have a lot to learn? Yep! (more than I care to admit, honestly)
Am I ok with that? Ehhh…
The truth is, I’ve waited so long to get started and I’m totally held back by fear. Fear of failure and giving up after a week. Fear of putting myself out there. Fear of just looking like an idiot when my blog looks crazy. Fear of no one reading it but my mom (thanks, Mom). Fear of running out of things to write.
Fear is a powerful weapon of the enemy. I know a lot of people who would like to do a lot of things but for fear of what will happen if they try? No one wants to look foolish. No one wants to fail. I still feel that way on most days. I’ve been talking about blogging for long enough and allowing those fears to set up camp in my head. For me, if I don’t start blogging, I almost look more foolish talking about it and never starting than if I actually go for it.
And so I think about all that I’ve lost by waiting. Documenting my faith journey in a real way. Documenting things in my kids’ lives I want to remember. Sharing my beliefs about food and the ups and downs with motherhood. I’ve come to the conclusion that I’m the one that’s allowing myself to be held back by fear and quite honestly, I’m done with that.
I’m okay with failure. I’m okay if I’m putting words out there that aren’t reaching anyone just yet. I certainly don’t want that to be the case forever, but I realize that’s all part of getting started. What I’m not okay with is feeling in my heart that I want to do this and not going for it. Not letting the words in my head and heart finally be put down. I’m not okay with allowing the fear to take away my dream of doing this.
So here I am! Saying good-bye to fear. Because no matter what happens from here on out, I’m doing it!
Join me in the journey?